let me set up the back round to all that im going to try to say.
yesterday my brother, Jeremy, and i had a long conversation. he was saying a lot of stuff about picking up the cross and dying to myself. i wont go into detail because that's coming later. i basically sat there and was trying so hard to be humble and listen to him. i felt in my heart that everything he said was right and true. but i didnt want to accept it, because what he was saying would require me to give up [for a SMALL time] something that i love dearly: surfing. it hurt just to think about it, because i know there's suuuuper beautiful waves this weekend and i need all the practice i can get.
i woke up this morning to Justin Rizzo. if you listen to all his songs on this album, it pretty much just encourages you in this. it's really good.
am i sowing to the spirit or am i sowing to the flesh? im doing one or the other all the time. happy holiness and joyful righteousness...as i give it ALL away. i will not despise the sowing of seeds because i know in due time i will see the fruit of my labor for all of eternity. What am i living for? if im living to give glory to Him, it's all worth it. but without His glory, there's nothing; because nothing in this life will never truly satisfy like the desires of His heart. there is weight in what im doing. He sees me, when i struggle to take my thoughts captive, as i try to fast, truly, and seek His face over all the things i love. He sees me murdering my flesh right now.
and in all this, He's given me a choice to choose to go deeper with Him or to stay where i am.
that's really the decision i had to make.
give up super rare, really beautiful, good waves this week or two, and go after God with everything that's in me and GET it?
~or~
go surfing. pass up God, put Him off for a bit and not get as far as i want.
well. Holy Spirit was jumping in me to go after God and give up surfing for a short time.
so for a week or two, im not going out. im fixing my thoughts on Him.
and i know, there's a few of you out there saying "wow...this is hard for you lisa? that's dumb."
well. yes. it is. you ask any surfer out there who really loves what they do. you ask them if they'd give up a weekend of surfing super nice waves. get real.
"this momentary light affliction is working in me." -Justin Rizzo
this is as momentary and as light as it will ever get, but it's still working in me in big ways. and ill consider it pure joy.
that's all i have to say.
yesterday my brother, Jeremy, and i had a long conversation. he was saying a lot of stuff about picking up the cross and dying to myself. i wont go into detail because that's coming later. i basically sat there and was trying so hard to be humble and listen to him. i felt in my heart that everything he said was right and true. but i didnt want to accept it, because what he was saying would require me to give up [for a SMALL time] something that i love dearly: surfing. it hurt just to think about it, because i know there's suuuuper beautiful waves this weekend and i need all the practice i can get.
i woke up this morning to Justin Rizzo. if you listen to all his songs on this album, it pretty much just encourages you in this. it's really good.
am i sowing to the spirit or am i sowing to the flesh? im doing one or the other all the time. happy holiness and joyful righteousness...as i give it ALL away. i will not despise the sowing of seeds because i know in due time i will see the fruit of my labor for all of eternity. What am i living for? if im living to give glory to Him, it's all worth it. but without His glory, there's nothing; because nothing in this life will never truly satisfy like the desires of His heart. there is weight in what im doing. He sees me, when i struggle to take my thoughts captive, as i try to fast, truly, and seek His face over all the things i love. He sees me murdering my flesh right now.
and in all this, He's given me a choice to choose to go deeper with Him or to stay where i am.
that's really the decision i had to make.
give up super rare, really beautiful, good waves this week or two, and go after God with everything that's in me and GET it?
~or~
go surfing. pass up God, put Him off for a bit and not get as far as i want.
well. Holy Spirit was jumping in me to go after God and give up surfing for a short time.
so for a week or two, im not going out. im fixing my thoughts on Him.
and i know, there's a few of you out there saying "wow...this is hard for you lisa? that's dumb."
well. yes. it is. you ask any surfer out there who really loves what they do. you ask them if they'd give up a weekend of surfing super nice waves. get real.
"this momentary light affliction is working in me." -Justin Rizzo
this is as momentary and as light as it will ever get, but it's still working in me in big ways. and ill consider it pure joy.
that's all i have to say.
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