Friday, January 13, 2012

it's one of those "im gonna write out all my freaking frustrations" seasons..sorry.

rejection is a really hard thing to deal with, and honestly no one should ever have to "just deal with it." I've watched rejection shred people apart, and i've experienced it first-hand, in it's prime. i really hate it when people coldly reject their family. it really pisses me off, to the point that i would throw a few punches to get my point across.

dear world,
when a young mother of three children is experiencing rejection from her father, her husband, and is not living close to HER family but her husbands', you dont (blanking) reject her just like everybody else.
freakkkking retards. she's a thousand miles from her mom and her sisters, and you choose to let her experience MORE rejection because the situation isn't "comfortable" for you?! i seriously would love to just shoot you square in the head right now.
sincerely,
a very upset sister who is at the end of her rope with injustice.

selfishness leads to rejection. that's all there is to it.

every man in my direct family's life has really screwed up everything for us. and i am beyond being talked to about it. i've been stolen from, and more importantly, my mom, my sisters, my niece and my nephews have been stolen from. there's no justifying what's been done. i get mad when people "flick me off on their way out"...that's one thing, actually. go ahead...but you dare do that to any other person in my family and i will tear your face off of your scull, or at least think of the most excruciating, most painful and most torturous way to kill someone and do it to you. they've been to hell and back and they somehow find it in their hearts to forgive and love you, out of every other person in the world. they've been broken at such a young age. they've had to experience this rejection so early in life, from people that are supposed to always be there. and it's NOT fair. they deserve so much more than what has been dealt to them. and yeah i know all of this sounds really gross and gory and unlike me, but i am so mad right now. and i will not apologize for that.
im ready for some justice to take place in my family's life and in mine. im done with injustice taking place week after week.

i've always pictured myself as a good southern girl. blue eyes and a sweet personality.....
'til you really piss her off. then you realize "ohhhhhhhhh crap, she knows how to shoot and drive.." and poison your food, slash tires, use a baseball bat......
you really dont want to get me to that point. praise God that im a christian, so it takes a really long time of abuse to get me to that point. but i wouldnt put it past me if i were you.
so just watch out, world. this girl's reached the end of her rope.



im posting this just so i can look back and remember how insanely mad i was tonight. that's all.

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