I was writing in a notebook/journal last night. i wrote these words, that completely shocked me in such a weird way, but also brought outrageous joy.
"He is so beautiful. His imagination is so perfect. No perversion is in Him."
i wasn't thinking about it. it just slipped out.
as i was cleaning up dishes this morning, i began to think about this phrase again. "No perversion is in Him."
that means i don't have to "watch myself" with God. i don't have to "turn the channel", i don't have to "hold the remote". i don't have to hide my eyes with Him. i don't have to guard myself against ANYTHING with Him. i don't have to make sure my heart doesn't get too attached, because "it may not work out".
goodness, do you know how wonderful this feeling is?!
with everything else in the world--music, tv, emotions, people, EVERYTHING, we have to watch ourselves to make sure no impure thing gets in. it rips me to shreds inside when it sneaks its' way in..
but with Jesus, i don't have to worry about anythinggg. i can let myself love freely. i can give all the love i have to Him, and i will never get hurt. He will never give up, He will never reject, He will never disappoint. i can fix my eyes on Him and nothing bad will come up. i can listen to Him, and He will never cuss or set a bad example, or ask me to do anything evil. He will always be love, give joy, peace, patience, will always be kind, faithful, and have self control. He will never be proud or boastful, He will always be hopeful and gentle. He will always be excellent and worthy of praise, He will always be honorable and right and admirable and true and pure. He will always free my heart; He sets every captive free. and when i am with Him, i will never come away with the feeling of being drained out and dry; i will never feel like i need to puke because i am so full of junk. instead i feel clean and refreshed and pure at heart and in mind. wow..God's so cool.
it's such a weird idea that someone does exist who has no perversion at all in Him. but if He didnt, He wouldn't be God. it's mind-boggling, really. how did i not know this before?
i guess i knew this before, subconsciously, but now i KNOW it in my heart. there's a huge difference.
"He is so beautiful. His imagination is so perfect. No perversion is in Him."
i wasn't thinking about it. it just slipped out.
as i was cleaning up dishes this morning, i began to think about this phrase again. "No perversion is in Him."
that means i don't have to "watch myself" with God. i don't have to "turn the channel", i don't have to "hold the remote". i don't have to hide my eyes with Him. i don't have to guard myself against ANYTHING with Him. i don't have to make sure my heart doesn't get too attached, because "it may not work out".
goodness, do you know how wonderful this feeling is?!
with everything else in the world--music, tv, emotions, people, EVERYTHING, we have to watch ourselves to make sure no impure thing gets in. it rips me to shreds inside when it sneaks its' way in..
but with Jesus, i don't have to worry about anythinggg. i can let myself love freely. i can give all the love i have to Him, and i will never get hurt. He will never give up, He will never reject, He will never disappoint. i can fix my eyes on Him and nothing bad will come up. i can listen to Him, and He will never cuss or set a bad example, or ask me to do anything evil. He will always be love, give joy, peace, patience, will always be kind, faithful, and have self control. He will never be proud or boastful, He will always be hopeful and gentle. He will always be excellent and worthy of praise, He will always be honorable and right and admirable and true and pure. He will always free my heart; He sets every captive free. and when i am with Him, i will never come away with the feeling of being drained out and dry; i will never feel like i need to puke because i am so full of junk. instead i feel clean and refreshed and pure at heart and in mind. wow..God's so cool.
it's such a weird idea that someone does exist who has no perversion at all in Him. but if He didnt, He wouldn't be God. it's mind-boggling, really. how did i not know this before?
i guess i knew this before, subconsciously, but now i KNOW it in my heart. there's a huge difference.
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